wowwwww!

Okay..since my life has dramatically changed during the past few weeks..I guess I should make a significant update. Now I might not sound very intellectual or coherent, just keep in mind that right now I would like to strangle somebody. =)

I'm pretty sure it was Monday, August 18th when my boyfriend of over 4 years decided that he would change his myspace status to single, and delete all of my pictures and comments, and finally he deleted me as his friend. And yes, he did all of this without even informing me that our relationship was over. Now that was a shitty move..but whatever..I called him and he wouldn't answer..so i sent him a text basically saying thanks for letting me know..and he tried to explain himself but all I responded with was "okay, cool." The relationship needed to end anyway..so it hurt, but I tried to blow it off. So then I see his myspace everyday because its on my best friend's page that passed away..she had him on her top friends. And of course I got curious, because we were together for 4 years. Well i click on his page and realize that his status says "loved" ..this boggled my mind. How could he feel loved when we just broke up? So that gave me the hint that he got a new girlfriend. Whatever. Okay now this past weekend it gets confirmed that he is dating some extremely ugly beast thing because he put their picture up on his myspace and decided to email me telling me his sorry about whatever. It was complete bullshit anyway. So i email him back telling him i dont believe anything he has to say anymore since he obviously moved on so quickly.

NOW tonight, I'm sitting here and I realize that the girl in the photo he is with..she kinda looks familiar! And for some reason i remember his ex gfs screen name...i guess because for the past few months i realized he was on her myspace a hell of a lot. Now keep in mind..he has told me time and time again that this girl was a psychopath, she tried to kill herself when they broke up, and she even put a restraining order against him. Sounds like a winner, right? Well anyway, it turns out that he is dating her again. Im furious right now..because now I feel like i got totally played out for the past 4 years. I feel stupid, and I just want to run them over with my car. This is pretty much everything in a nutshell...minus the details that he made up stories to one of our mutual friends just so i lose a friend in the process.

I hate his guts, and I hope karma totally screws him over. He doesn't deserve to be happy.

And this is my ex-scumbag rant. =)

Full circle people.. full circle

Ok I haven't blogged in awhile, but ladies and gentlemen I REALLY need to vent my heart out. SO, I have been "dicked over" wayyy too many times in the short time that I have been on this earth. Now, let me just say that every time and I mean EVERY TIME I come across something good, MY ENTIRE PAST comes back to me, and I MEAN FULL CIRCLE. I re-united with a good friend from high school the other week, and we clicked again rather unexpectedly (well I probably shouldn't say unexpectedly since we had a thing for e/o in High school). I thought to myself for the first time in a longggg time that I might actually want to start a relationship or something of that nature, but of course he is a soldier, and was deployed overseas. I'm thinking that I don't want to let him go completely and since I'm finishing my degree a relationship may not be the best move right now anyway. Well, Kristine decides that she is going to keep in touch with him and just see what happens with life... and then it happened; the incredibly annoying full circle of life. As soon as I decided in my mind that soldier would be a great guy to date, every guy that I had feelings for or once dated in my past come waltzing back into the picture. GOD ITS SO ANNOYING. I just got over my recent hook up.. and now he's "Waiting for me," another past semi-relationship dude who was absolutely awesome then went to college IM's me "I've been thinking about you a lot," and finally psycho ex boyfriend from like sophomore year "I miss your company." HONESTLY WTF! I'm going to leave it at that.. I don't know what to do.. any suggestions?